Letters from The Beast

Dear G, My spiritual journey has always been on the main stage of my life. From a very young age I knew exactly what was in my heart but as I looked around to find a box that my heart fit in I became discouraged. Everywhere I looked, every conversation I had left me frustrated and angry. How is it that every belief system has such strong convictions that they are right, everyone else is wrong and only a selected few are loved? How could there be so many different standards to live by? I had a father who strongly believed all religion is bad. Religion is at the core of all war. I don't think he is wrong but I don't think he is right. Power and control in the name of religion are at the core. I had a mom who taught meditation and gave many people a spiritual connection my entire life. The two of them never found the common ground between what they believed. I agreed with both of them and often, at a very young age, had to show them their agreement. They couldn't hear behi

Dear Om,   I'm taking my power back. Staying distant has been the best thing for both of us.   For years I have been mad at you and every time I have expressed any kind of anger you shrug and make me believe you are not to blame. How could I even compare you to him. The two of you are separate, but are you?   I am was mad at you for the same reason Little Girl Lost is mad at me. Sure you weren't The Beast, you didn't directly hurt me, but you also chose blindness. I learned to close my eyes by watching you. I learned to ignore the truth the abuse by telling myself, well, it's not me doing it.   Om, I hear you saying to me "let go of your anger, forgive those who have hurt you" not once have you ever said sorry.  I have let go of my anger but I had to separate myself from you in order to see where you end and I begin.   I will not continue the cycle. My purpose is to live Happily Ever