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Letters from The Beast

This is the battle of The Beast that lives inside of me. The Beast is the perceived realities created by years of abuse and mental illness. This is my path to recovery and the everyday battle to stay happy and peaceful in my heart. My book "The Beast" is on Audible and Amazon.

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- December 10, 2018

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The Keys - Part One

- August 17, 2017

21 Keys is a professional workshop that my school district strongly believes in. Every teacher in our district gets this training in their second year. I am fortunate enough to be part of this district and have the opportunity for personal and professional growth. 21 Keys is put out by the Pacific Institute and written by Lou Tice. This is my interpretation of the keys and how they can help me change my life. Key One Conditioning and Perception Noise from the past shapes your perception of the present. STOP THE NOISE We behave and act not in accordance with the truth but how we believe. Our conditioning creates a sensory that blocks information out of your environment. Lou Tice calls this our scotoma. The problem with scotoma (blind spots) is we don't know where they are and when we can't perceive something we make it wrong. This is part of our conditioning. One of my blind spots is my self worth. My experiences have given me a lot of doubt and fear. I've...

EYES WIDE SHUT

- August 03, 2017

Step One

- August 01, 2017

Am I controlling? Yes! I thought I had controlled my control issues by becoming an educator. There is a lot we can control in our classroom. I've realized I was only disguising my control issues. If people didn't do as I perceived "the right way" I walked away from them. I was essentially sending out the message, behave according to my perception of reality or go away. Although I believed I was an excepting, forgiving, non-judgmental person, really I am exactly like everyone else, completely self-centered and judgmental. The only difference is I was hiding it. What's the difference between being powerless and being empowered? When I try to feel something on the inside but trying to control the outside I feel powerless and frustrated. Empowered means the inside feelings do not depend on my outside circumstances. When I let go of expectations I gain the freedom I have been looking for. The freedom to live without strings, without fear, and freedom to ...