Little girl lost

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Little girl lost,

I know you still hurt. I know you're still angry. I know you are angry with me. Most of all I know you are strong. I know you will heal. I know you will do the right thing. I know you will kill the beast. 

 

I promise you I still suffer for the Beast that I battle. I still suffer for keeping my eyes closed from the very beginning. 

 

There was a red banner flying over his childhood home. When I met his mother I could feel the beast's breath hot in the room. When he disappeared for 13 hours during the days of our engagement I felt the blood of the beast enter my veins as I accepted the ring back. When I woke up in his mother's home at 6 o'clock in the morning without a trace of him I signed the deal and the beast took over my life. I gave up to him before I ever spoke out vows. I let the beast control my life from that point on. He had my soul and I was dead inside. 

 

I'll tell you what I sold my soul for, a beautiful house, a nice car and 20k worth of diamonds. I got ripped off. 

 

Little girl lost,

You will win this battle. You will not let the beast  take your soul. I know this is truth because you are the only one who could save me. All the red flags in the world, all the cries and screams from friends and family, you are the only one who brought me back from the dead. The power inside of you is great. 

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