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Dear Aaron,

What was it you said

Something about punctuation

and poetry

I never did that so well

I had run on sentences

And couldn’t spell.

Let me introduce myself, I suck

Ever since I learned the ABC’s

They asked me my favorite subject

Spelling I wrote

with one L

I never could forget how cute and funny it was

Words run on and on and on

Spelling with one L was all the buzz

Till this day

Red lines, blue lines,

what the fuck is that green

Shit, fuck….I suck

Dear Aaron,

I hid my diary

like a dirty secret

nightly I needed my fix

I would do it in the dark, alone,  

Behind locked doors, drawn blinds

Way beyond being grown

Spilling secrets and dreams

Shit, fuck...I suck

Dear Aaron

In high school I didn’t pass the state exam

In college I needed some extra classes

As a professional I need a proofreader,

Shit, fuck...I suck

Dear Aaron,

At the age of 25

I threw it all out

I couldn’t take it anymore

Such hate and self doubt

I thought I could stop

Writing my secrets

Spelling with one L

I would do it in the dark

I had to escape the hell

It wasn’t all that bad.

But I wasn’t the best.

Ego and pride

were my demise

I am one of those people

who can walk away and never look back

But I never let go of speling with one l

It’s who I am

It’s my higher power

It’s how I breath

Dear Aaron,

I need to write I need to shout  

I have to do this

I must be here

Screw winning score me 0

I want to hear your words

I want to feel your passion

I’m going to keep coming back

I found my new obsession