WE DIDN'T TALK

There were two times that you found me

in the woods with the boys

there were two times

that we didn’t speak a word

about what was happening one time

The first time you found me

with five boys I was seven

they were 13 they

had a porno magazine

showing me different parts

different pages

different scenes

I was the girl in these magazines

this is what you do

this is who you are

this is how you’ll be treated

They would say

The second time you found me

Was with only one boy

I was walking through the woods

alone with my toy

I didn’t even see him sitting there

Until he smack the toy out of my hand

broken on the floor

he put his hand in my pants

yanked me toward him

all I was seeing

the broken toy on the ground

I don’t know how long had passed

before you showed up you

screamed something I couldn’t hear

could’ve been stop

Put him in a panic saying

I was helping her pee

I was too old for that need

both of these times

we didn’t say a word

we walked home in silence

I wasn’t sure you heard heard

my confusion, my screams

I was seven he was 13

you never said anything

I learned not to talk

there’s so much more that happened that summer

but I just scream when I went for a walk

the worst time again there was three or five

they pushed me down

hands on my shoulders I felt like

I was being buried alive

I remember hearing them laugh

I remember the boy that was closest in age

he was the one on top of me

nobody found me that day

nobody walked me home in silence

at the end of the summer

I was sent away

I did something wrong

We did not talk

you were disgusted

I was only seven they were 13