Fight on!

I will not fear the Beast anymore. I will slay him and his long years of reign will be over. The lawyer says it's going to be a war. His lawyer says I better watch my back. 

 

All these words designed to make me strong and weak at the same time but my blood was spilled long before this battle and I rose up again. 

 

I have nothing to hide. My eyes were shut but now they are open. In dark days all I could feel was desperate. That desperation caused me to act like a fool in my own kingdom. I didn't know life could be better. I thought pain and suffering was just like breathing. I forgot I was a queen not a fool. 

 

You can try to scare me all you want. I have already reclaimed my throne. I have no desired outcome other than keeping my kids safe, reminding them of their greatness and showing them how to be strong. 

 

You can bring up whatever lies you can create. You can use me in your game of abuse if you must. I already know how to survive. I already know happiness is breathing. No matter what you do what this war looks like, how much you try to cut me down, I have already won And the cycle will stop with me! 

Dear G,

 

You have brought me this far and I have faith in the path ahead of me. I have clearly asked you for help and you have provided every step of the way. 

 

I know these threats are scare tactics. I asked for help and you gave me letters. These letters speak the truth. I will not give up or give into fear. 

 

I owe it to myself, to Little Girl Lost and to my own to stop the cycle. I will not let you down. Thank you for loving me and trusting me. 

 

 

Yes, it may have been years ago. I may have already known you were a bad person who hurt women, but I really didn't know how bad it was. I didn't have anything but the feeling in my heart. I did not seek out these messages. I simply asked for help. 

 

I will not be silent anymore.