Hero

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The darkest night I can remember you say you were in your car driving from  California to Arizona. Your mission was to be close to your daughter but instead you found me. I was broken and bleeding. I was slowly dying and I was happily giving up.


You came in and you  told me NO! you told me to fight. You did not fix me or even try. You simply showed me the way to fix myself.


My letter to you: what an amazing man, soul and gift you are. You swept me off the ground and cradled me in your arms until the screaming stopped. My soul is connected to you. My heart is full of gratitude and I have so much more to learn. 


This journey is only beginning. A new life is emerging. Everyday I make strides toward my true purpose. I have waited for the day I could show the world my gift and give mankind hope. I believe my gift is survival. Not just staying alive but emerging with a full heart. I believe my gift is to teach how to beat rape, self harm and wrongful conditioning. To slay the demons and to shine.


I am finally standing with conviction about who I am and what I believe. This is the first tie I have had the courage to write what I believe to be my purpose, my truth, my gift. I have been terrified to open up to criticism and doubt. Last night I shared my dream with you. My real dream, to heal the world and you didn't doubt me.
With your support I will continue to write about the struggles, the moments of doubt and fear. I know there will be plenty but the beauty is that they go away and I don't.
THE BEASTs are  LIARS!
I will be the truth! 
I am love!

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